~!ShObA!~

2011-04-17T03:27:00.000-07:00

I'M BACK! omg, it has almost one year that i nvr blog. simply bcoz i did not get the time n i totally forgot tat i had a blog till today. Changed my background n all. guess wat..hmt exam is on tuesday. Hell, im sec 4 this year. & damn im not preppared yet. Go0d luck to me!

2010-06-27T00:01:00.000-07:00

Only If I Could Go a Year Back, Everything Would Have Been Just Fine.

2010-06-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

I was jz thinking back abt few stuffs jz seconds ago

i realised tat i've missed soo much in life

instead of grumbling abt guy who spoiled my life,

frens whom i have lost n made me sad,

i think i should say tat i ruined my own life.

i guess its the truth,

i should have jz moved on, instead of thinking back n spoiling my mood.

i guess its my fault.

there's no one to blame.

jz myself.

2010-05-27T01:29:00.000-07:00

LAST DAY OF SCOOL PPLE!

happy + sad la..

happy tat i will get good rest n can sleep long long.

sad bcoz will miss my frineds ='(

today didn't go so well okay

had parent's meeting session today.

i went with my dad.

looking at those sickening papers n horrible marks,

F9 for two subjects okay.

DAMN BAD!!

freaking sad...

saw tamil teacher n there's where i cried.

cried very badly for some reasons.

not bad, but good!

wanna know?

Ask me!

have a wonderful holidays pple!

2010-05-25T01:25:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARAN!!

In a way, i love today bcoz it was haran's b'day..

but also hated it bcoz i saw pple tat i shouldn't be seeing

which totally spoiled my mood!

2010-05-24T01:19:00.000-07:00

today had scool (like obviously!)

yeah i bored now

nth much la in scool..

jz enjoyed my time in class with kuganesh, nishan n rajes

lekha nvr come scool ='(

yeah so in class i n kuku were entertained by rajes n nishan..

they were fighting.

hahahaha..damn cute la they all

yup, nth much la..

jz another typical scool day.

2010-05-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

Guess what?

i went to watch SHREK today with my family..

damn funny okay..

i really cannot take it la..

hahahaha....

i feel like watching it again man..

puss' eyes were ssooo bloody damn cute okay

hahahaha....

i like it, i love it!

everyone mz watch it okay.

hehehe...

2010-05-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUGANESH!

wondering who is kuganesh?

she is my stick fren..lol

im like soo bad man, hehehe

scool was fun today..

i dunno y also.

after scool was the best man.

bash kuganesh with water..

patrick started it first

then i, lekha, shami n ella continued.

chilled n toked for awhile.

CCA BEGAN!

HAHAHA..yeah so did evac a little..

then there was a meeting with the heads, excos n sing onn sir.

interesting n funny.

after tat i had a very fun time teaching my sec 2s footdril..

played the elimination game with them..

hahaha..then we wrapped up,

had briefing and went home.

2010-05-16T06:23:00.000-07:00

Hello!
today i went to my

mama's ROM! (U Should know wat it means)

had alot of fun with my cousins..

nvr c them for like years u know..

missed them alot..

all were dressed in sarees and paavadai thaavani..

took pics n saw the lovely couples..

anni's dress was bloody nice...

so yeah..

i will upload the pics once i get them..

coz i don have it now..

nth to say aready la..

bye bye!

2010-05-14T21:11:00.000-07:00

Hey pple! I'm back in action! nvr blog for hell long.

i'm extremely sorry..had examz n did not have the mood to blog.

I MISS MY THAMBI ALOT!

went jogging today with my Bestiee!

hahahaha..laughed alot with her!

LADY BABA!

HAHAHA..damn nonsense la we!

haiz..i miss the old times..

memories gushing back into my mind ='(

so yeah, examz did not go well.

only satisfied with my tamil.

the rest all canot make it.

especially BIOLOGY!!!!

Now i know how it feels like to be a sec 3 student.

lol..im damn bored now.

seriously have got nth to do.

No one to entertain me!

I'll Try my level best to blog everyday..

tomorow i will blog..

bcoz i know i will have nth to do..

GOOD DAY!

2010-03-19T02:12:00.000-07:00

I got my tummy damn hell full yesterday at malaysia..

i felt like a pig okay..

went there with my family..galfren jeevi's family and sathia uncle family..

had much fun with them..

realised tat kuru nvr come..

dunno y also..baby also nvr come..

ate our breakfast..go temple..

GUESS WHAT!?!?!

WE WENT TO JUSCO!!

hahaha..damn fun la..

we had our lunch there..

shopped too n went to watch movie..

we watched alice in wonderland..

very nice la the movie..

not bad..so yeah!

after tat choa-ed to sea food shop..

ate our dinner...wow SEAFOOD WAS HOT!!

I ate hell alot man..

totally blotted..

hahaha...oh ya i forget to tell..

b4 our lunch we all went to holiday Inn and pedicured!

i put hot pink..

oh yyeeaahh!

cool rite...it looks very nice..

hahaha..yeah!

took pics also but will upload at fb..

so if wanna c u go n c in my fb..okay?

2010-03-15T02:01:00.000-07:00

Blogging after a long time yeah!

jz came back from NCO camp..

really very fun peepz..

did learn alot from the camp

i miss my bun family..

ROCK ON BUNS!!

Lol! i'm going crazy..

guess wat i feel tat instead of getting upset abt watever is happening,

i think i should jz forget everything n start off scool next week in a better way...

i want to move on n i need to move on..

no more cryings n sobbings..

scool is the only place where i can have fun..

come on man..

i cannot be sad for the whole life time..

i know u guys r sick of reading my sad blog post..

im also sick of posting sad stuffs..

i wanna enjoy life in a gd way!

Y mz i worry abt others when i've got gd frens..

i love myself n my frens..

trying my hardest to push away all my probs..

I ROCK MY WORLD!

2010-02-24T04:43:00.000-08:00

Friendship Kills Me More Than How Much Relationship Does !

2010-02-14T01:30:00.000-08:00

Hello peepo!

Happy Valentines Day!

i'll ake this blog as short as possible..

coz its like getting late n i gotta sleep..today i went to changi chalet..

with jeevitha family..my family n kuru family..

had lots lots n lots f fun with them n my baby lakshitha..

went there settled down then we went to the beach n got ourselves a little wet..

then i played with a golden retriever...

it was hell damn cute okay..

i like wanted to bring it back home..

but to bad for me bcoz it already has a owner..

so yeah ate linch..

slack slack watch movie n all..

then at 4.30pm..

everyone went for a coastal walk along the beach..

gfreaking fun..

it was a gd exercise for me..

but eventually i still gain back the fats..

came back to changi heaven..relax in air con for awhile..

then everypne go bathe..

settled down for bbq..

ate ate ate n ate..

n now im really very fat..

until now im like very bloted..

got too much of food in my tummy..

took alot of fotos..

but i won be uploading simply bcoz im too lazy..

u all can check it out in my fb..

yeah so after the bbq-ing..

all started packing up..

the kids played captain ball for awhile n after tat..

EVERYONE CHAO-ED HOME!!

sad thing bcoz im missing jeevitha, kuru n my baby lakshitha!

but hopefully i'll b meeting them soon..

if i have the mood then i will upload atleasy some of the fotos la..

Byezz!

2010-02-13T05:39:00.000-08:00

I owe lots of apology to my blog..

have not been updating it for almost a month..

not becoz im too lazy but i've seriously got no time..

I'M TOO STRESSED UP PPLE!!

Admitting the truth!

I'm crying now okay..

i seriously cannot take it anymore..

i'm like soo pissed for the past one month..

studies..cca..frens..relationships..

I'M GOING CRAZY OKAY!

noone simply understands me..

i've seriously sacrificed alot...

ALOT MEANS REALLY ALOT!

im only left with my studies..frens n my life..

will u be happy if u constantly fail all ur test?

will u be happy if u get ZERO!! for ur bio test?

will u be happy if u get presssurized with soo much of things?

will u be happy if someone who was once part of ur life keeps on disturbing u?

will u be happy if u lose ur own frens?

u all should have known how i m feeling now..

& FYI this is only half of my stress..

i've got alot more but i don wan to waste time typing it out..

yesterday was frenship day..

even on a happy day a bitch really pissed me off..

tomorow is valentines day...

its gonna be a bad day for me..

haiz..it really reminds me abt valentines day last year!

i've got hell lots of work to do now..

tomorow im going to go chalet..

with my childhood frens n their family..

i hope i have a good time there..

im trying to get over my sadness..

but i simply can't..

im really bleeding alot inside...

i'm running out of words to say! ='(

2010-01-15T01:35:00.000-08:00

Had cca today :)

like duh..its friday.

scool went great today..

not bad but was still in leg pain..

i find it very hard to climb up n down the stairs..

today's chemistry lesson really rocked man!

u wanna know y?

come n ask me..

got alot of weekend hw given today..

after scool went to pg with shami n lekha..

did our hws..

shami was sleeping..

damn cute sia she sleep..

even took foto of her sleeping..

will pose it once i get the fotos..

during rc..had pt with ncc..

the we did pds together with ncc..

had fun time..

i n ella felt quite stressed up for some reasons..

cried all out..

after cca rushed with hws again..

then went to pg with chandra, shami, mages, haran n sujan..

i was very upset..

really wanted to burst out crying...

had no choice but to control..

haven start on my hws yet..

will be starting soon..

shall blog tomorow!

Byezz!

2010-01-14T01:30:00.000-08:00

My legs r like aching very badly..

had damn hell high fever today..

went to scool in the morning looking sore..

slept late last nite aftre all hws..

haiz...too much of stuffs to do..

saw shami..haran n the rest..

sat down n had felt liking sleeping..

scool went normal..

was jz upset abt some stuffs..

only i fi had not gotten my fever i would have gone to the pongal thing..

everyone went..

n i guess it was fun..

came home n took a long nap..

3 hours..

sleept like as if i nvr sleep for days..

couldn even wake up to pray..

had tution at 7.30..

did revision on the logarithms..

come home take medicine n blogging..

i wan to sleep again..

but got hw..

alot alot alot of hws to be done..

like damn wtf!

Byezz!

2010-01-09T03:23:00.000-08:00

Had cca open house today..

it was really very fun...

i did cpr la..

shami n ella did cooking..

adeline n some of the sec 2s did presenting..

really very fun..

ran up n down to the redcross room to get stuffs..

leg paining..searching for medicine..

after everything over..

we oack up..

cleared n arranged rc room..

then had briefing la..

not bad 26 ppl signed up..

after briefing ast at cyber cafe until 12.00

was jz toking to haran..

shami was with ella..

after tat we went out of scool..

shami went to drop ella at the traffic light..

saw chandra, zainab, pirinthah, sujan n venga

then went to them n tok la..

then later i n shami decorated haran with flowers n took fotos..

will upload once i get the fotos..

walked very slowly..

went to the area where the huge balls were..

i really wanted to get up but i couldn do it on my own..

so asked haran for help..

carried me n shami onto the balls..

then took fotos again..

lol..

had much fun with all :)

went to jp to eat...

i didn want to eat..

bcoz i was sleepy n upset abt sth..

around 2.30 all of us left macdonald n headed home..

zainab kept on irritating me n pirinthah in the bus..

she really had nth else better to do la..

hahahaha...ok then gonna rest..

my legs very pain..

n yeah..

after i got down from the bus was woking toward my block..

i dunno wat i tripped on..

& I FELL VERY BADLY..

i fell flat..

thank god noone saw..

very painful...

but could take it la..

wat can be more painful then the pain in my heart...

leg still pain..

but controlling..

Byezz!

2010-01-09T02:00:00.000-08:00

I'm Very Upset abt wats been happening...

not to anyone else..

but ME! D=

i dunno wether is it bcoz i regret or not..

i jz feel very heartbroken..

this time round its bcoz of a fren...

i simply dunno y..

i cried yesterday bcoz of it..

i cried today bcoz of it..

n im crying always...

i jz can't stop...

the moment i c tat person, my eyes will be filled with tears...

i can't look or even tok to tat person properly..

i dunno how much that person likes me even after watever has happened between us..

i will always wonder y can't i be always bside tat person..

i jz wish i could rewind back to the past...

to fix back my broken heart..

i've been always wanting to tok to this person..

HEART TO HEART..

but i jz don get the time..

we r nvr alone together...

we r surrounded...

i hate this paining..

but i would have to go through it life long..

i don have anyone to tell this to..

i hope i will have someone..

a someone whom i can trust n willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on..

there's no other ways to show my feelings..

but to cry it all out in my blog..

i dunno y m i like tat..

i feel horrible..

i feel lifeless...

haiz..too much of memories to remember..

can't afford to forget even one of it...

i hope we get back to normal..

n tat day will be the happiest day in my entire life!

2010-01-04T00:37:00.000-08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCOOL!

Ok la..went great..

happy happy happy!

abt the sec 1s..

hmmm really nth to say..

but cing them really reminds me of shamira when she was in primary scool..

hahahahaha... =p

nowadays i jz find myself emo-ing at home..

when i simply dunno wats rong with myself...

i feel damn lonely la..

i feel soo weird..

i feel damn one kind la..

i dunno how to say..

there is sth tat has been disturbing me for the past few days..

infact not sth..but someone..

i feel tat my heart is too weak to deal with some probs...

i don even feel like myself at all...

im like jz finding for someone to help me..

help me all the way..

I'M DIFFERENT AND I DUNNO Y !

2010-01-03T00:00:00.000-08:00

Scool is gonna reopen tomorow..

not really looking forward to it bcoz of 2 reasons..

not gonna tell wat r those...

my parents went to jp to dunno wat fix watch..

im EFFING ! sad abt my dearest fone..

gave to the shop like abt 2weeks ago..

n i still haven get back bcoz of some reasons..

its like damn stupid la..how long more they wanna take..

i feel very moody today..

im extremely upset...

1) its bcoz of my fone =(

2) He coled! ='(

we fought few weeks back...

but he coled today..

i've always been thinking tat he is jz a pain in my ass..

but watever he tol me today, really changed my mind

m i to believe him...

i dunno who to ask this to..

i fell for wat he said...

i jz miss him soo much..

i miss coling him baby 'h'...

tat pig who always love to bully me!

time runs very fast..extremely fast

especially this year!

i dunno how to console myself abt haresh!

i jz need a open space to shout out the accute pain in my heart..

& a all time shoulder to cry on!

2010-01-02T07:34:00.000-08:00

Its 2nd jan..

n im effing tired..

slept at 3+ only bcoz of some reasons..

haiz.. ashiq left yesterday..

he coled around 9.45 like tat..

to say bye..i was crying aready...

but i didn make it soo obvious...

smile..but controlled at the same time..

was at my grandma's houz..

moody all the way...

today nth much..woke up early..

dunno y also..i think im crazy..

did nth..came online n saw for awhile..

GUESS WHAT! Ashiq came online too..

i was like freaking happy la..

chatted with him..

but i realise tat wenever i chat with him,

i don feel tat he migrated..

i had the feeling tat he is still in s'pore..

but still missing him alot! D=

counting down three years..

i went to jp jz now to get myself a nice watch..

n for my sisters too..

i saw roshini n her couzins..

they were going to watch movie..

n now im here blogging..

was chatting with ashiq n haran jz now..

feeling quite upset still..

looking forward for scool to reopen..

Byezz!

2010-01-01T01:00:00.000-08:00

Its 3.33pm..

here i m sitting on my chair n blogging abt dunno wat

haiz..how more moody can i be..

My dearest thambi is flying off today..

i can't send him off bcoz my parens don allow..

its at nite..thats y..

haiz..effing sad..

cannot even say a bye to him...

hmmm...my new year is soo not great!

hopefully i will be able to msg him b4 he flys off..

D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:

having a very bad flu..

extremely exhausted man..

came back home only at 2.30 in the morning..

i went for countdown yesterday with jeevitha n kuru family..

had gd time with them..

fireworks was a blast..very nice laa..

msged everyone happy new year..

n for those who reading my post, i wish u all a

WONDERFUL HAPPY NEW YEAR.

zainab wok me up in the morning..

then i back again..

then this patrick woke me up..

he tol me tat he saw my parents in the church..

after toking to him i cannot sleep aready..

watch tv n now rotting..

im very sad & simply don have any words to say..

My best thambi is flying off..

wat can be more sad then tat..

i don wish to say anything..

i wish him all the best in his studies..

n im jz waiting for another three years to fly..

so tat i can see him with my australian choco...

toking to lekha on the fone...

Byezz!

2009-12-28T01:30:00.000-08:00

HAPPY B'DAY TO ME!!!

haha..today is like the best b'day ever in my entire life..

thanks to my dearest pirinthah, rachel, zainab, lekha, shami, haran, ashiq and patrick!

Thank u soo much guys..

w/o u all my b'day would have been nth..

had soo much of fun with all of u all..

zainab thanks for the letter..

sagu thank u soo much for the bracelet..

pirinthah ashiq n haran, thank u all soo much for the cake..

wow! i really love my day to the max man..

enjoyed until im tired now..lol!

i think im gonna sleep very soon la..

c first haiyo! im like bored now..

noone at home..

only me n my maid..

was toking to lekha abt some stuffs jz now..

entertained myself through her..

hahas..

ok la...

Byezz!

2009-12-06T20:03:00.000-08:00

HORT PARK REALLY ROCKED PPLE!!

had really alot of fun with jeevitha devash my baby sayang..n not forgetting kuru..

hahahahaha...

seriously damn fun okay..

i love my baby sayang lakshitha alot man..

omg! she is like the cutest baby gal that i have ever seen in my entire life time..

who will not love her...

i love her to the max core man...

in the morning woke up a little late la..

damn tired..so yeah..

waited n waited to be 3.30pm..

so tat can leave houz to got to hort park..

went there n met everyone..

baby took quite a long time to come to me..

hahahs..

after hort park we all went to alexender road to eat dinner..

after eating then i went to play with my baby sayang..

i took pics n video of her..

today i will only upload the pics..

video will take quite a long time la..

thats y..so yeah..

i enjoyed myself like a freaking alot man..

hahahahas...

n u know wat lakshitha b'day is coming very soon..

its on 9 december..

n they r like celebrating her b'ady..

she turnign one year old man..

hahahas..

i canot wait..

Byezz!!

2009-12-05T19:54:00.000-08:00

Hey peepo!!!

omfg i passed out from uip!!

i'm like damn soo happy ok..

congrats to christell for getting landyard..

im super duper happy for her..

yeah im a unit instructor now..

lol..hahahahaha...how more happier can i be..

HAPPY!! HAPPY!! HAPPY!! HAPPY!!

Im like missing grp exellence n celeste ma'am..

without them i would not have been a instructor..

they brought me up pple!!

i love them to the max core okay!

hahahahaha..

im like damn tired okay..

i need rest..

heard tat tomorow im going to hort park for walking..

WITH SATHIA UNCLE FAMILY N DEVA UNCLE FAMILY!!!

At last i can meet my lakshitha baby sayang!

i miss her like mad..

i miss my bestie jeevitha also..

hahaha..

i will blog abt tomrow after i come back from hort oark..

like obviously..

hahahahahaha....

ok then preparing myself for tomorow..

Byezz!

2009-12-04T19:45:00.000-08:00

Today nth much ...

dieing out of boredem..

lol seriously got nth to do..

thanks to haran he gave me sth to do..

went to st 91 buy hair spray for him..

n then waited until afternoon to give it to him..

came back home n my dad gave me a short lecture abt next year studies..

lol...i was like falling asleep aready liao..

hahhahaha..

ok then i wan to sleep now..

too bored until i wan to sleep now..

n ya tomorow i got CS 3..

got theory paper..

omg i scared man..

if i don pass then i won bcom a instructor..

haiz..

jz hope i will pass..

Byezz!

2009-12-02T19:09:00.000-08:00

Yo Pple!

u c i upload the pics aready..

hahahas...

yeah actually got somemore la..

but the computer got prob la..

don wanna upload. =(

so yeah....im rotting at home with my sis..

weather really very great..

i feel like sleeping..hahaha..

ok then i will blog sooon..

Byezz!

2009-12-01T18:59:00.000-08:00

Had a great day today with my darlings..

me rachel n zainab..

well we did the usuals.

went to LP then settled down there for awhile..

tok tok..n then climb up the pyramid..

sit there for quite a long time..

then tok n joke alot..

n u know wat..

it started raining u know..

it was like omfg damn nice la..

then we three got really damn bloody wet lor..

play play..then the stupid rain stop aready..

damn wtf la..i wanted itt to rain somemore..

hahaha..then went to toilet n wash up..

we chao-ed to macdonalds..

hahahas the best part was we took the rong bus la..

we ended up very far from the macdonalds..

so we had to walk..

along the way this zainab was like joking n we were singing fire burning in a new version..

so yeah gobbled much at macdonald n headed to rachel's houz.

took pics with the dolls n all..

then i n bee bee go back home aready..

got one joke abt the saku's houz with the lift la..

haiyo..this zainab la..

cannot take it man..

damn funny la she..

i don wan to type it..

ask me then i tell u..

hahahahas..

thanks to my gals i had a good time..

god bless them to the fullest..

gtg peepz!..

i need to get back home n study..

i will post the pics in the next post..

this time round i promise i will do it okay..

Byezz!

2009-11-30T04:48:00.000-08:00

Hey pple..

im back from my uip camp..

yeah it was fun..

we did footdrill all the way..

i was in the same bunk as adeline..

fun to be with her..

hahaha..

tok tok n tok all nites..

did our lesson plans together yeah..

helped each other too..

meals were great..

took fotos too..

campfire nite was the best la..

OA pple did a great job for the campfire..

we enjoyed..

my grp sang poker face song..

by lady gaga..

was glad to hear the rest sing with us too.

hahahaha..

i loved grp exellence alot yo!

I love my team mates..

n our dearest mentor..

celeste ma'am!

u ROCK!

hahahahahas..

ok yeah...

i wanna like rest then study for..

CS 3's theory paper..

wish me all the best ppepz!

Byezz!

2009-11-27T04:29:00.000-08:00

Yo pple!

im like damn tired pple..

i have to go for uip camp soon..

yesterday went out with roshini n fly..

had much fun with them at west coast..

went to eat first at ayer rajjah!

then yeah played to the fullest at west coast park..

hahaha..

took pics too..

will be posting..

im soo feeling tat im changing..

i dunnoo y..

maybe i will bring tat story soon....

not now..

i don wanna spoil my mood..

okays! i gonna pack..

for uip camp..

shall c ya soon!

Byezz!

2009-11-26T21:39:00.000-08:00

Yo peepz!

back from cambodia..

really had soo much fun there..

first day at the irpot packed everything

then yeah board the plane n flew to cambodia..

i was like sleeping throughout the journey..

then after landings..check in n everything..

went to the scool after our breakfast in the bus..

played with the kids n performed..

then yeah..

lunch at kfc..

rest at hotel..

then yeah the usual..

dinner n shoppings..

the next day i think we went to the orphanage..

then did more shoppings..

then once back into the hotel..

haiyo joke sia..

really cannot take it..

i n shamira in one room..

then naandhini n anuja in another room..

then their room is like way inside..

somemore it was like damn dark..

they like very scared..

i n shami go into the room aready..

then suddenly they knock on our door then they say canot on the lights in their rooms..

then they all like damn scared..

then ask me to follow..

then i n nandhini go to her room...

anuja n shamira waited at my room at the door there la..

hahahahaha..

then rite..

i took their room card n then went into the room.

i put the card in to slot..

but then the lights nvr come..

then i also like freaked out ok..

then i scared aready..

u know wat did i do..

i like take the card n ran back to my room u know..

i sprint u know..

i've nvr ran like tat in my entire life..

then nandhini also ran together with me behind..

walao..

then wen come back to my room we all like laughing sia..

omg! i really cannot take it u know..

laugh like made women sia..

then after tat col the operatoe all..

ask one worker to help us on..

then can areday la..

hahas..

yeah then the next day wake up early early..

then eat breakfast..

go to orphanage all..

i totally forget wat all i do in cambodia sia..

lol..yeah i remember doing shopping...

mostly did cip works la..

then the meals were like damn gd ok..

thrid day..

went to ngo..

the best part of the whole 4 days trip..

then went to king's palace..

did alot of stuffs..

then at nite came back to hotel n packed our bags..

then took alot of pics la..

hahahas..

then slept late..

but had to wake up early..

yeah..

then breakfast..

chao home!!!

hahahas..i don wann blog alot..

i very lazy..

hahahaha...

pics will be uploaded soon..

but not all the pics..

only some..

hahas

byez!

2009-11-22T18:08:00.000-08:00

I'm like sorry for not blogging for days.

im damn busy with the cambodia trip n trainings..

tats y have no time to blog..

have been going out with renuga n shamira to buy the stationeries n foods for the orphanage n the scools n cambodia..

we stayed up in renuga's houz to pack all those stuffs..

the best things was tat there was a baby named divya

played with her n took picture all..

she's like damn cute ok..

hahas..

yeah! tomorow im flying off to cambodia..

for four days..

will only be back on i think thursday..

yeah!

don miss me pple..

hahas.

ok then i wan to sleep now..

mz wake up at 2am..

coz mz be in scool at 3 am

early rite.

hahas..

yeah

Byez!!

2009-11-15T04:32:00.000-08:00

Extremely sorry for not blogging for days..

im like damn bz..

jz only return from camp la..

got achings also..

need someone to massage me..

i tell u camp was like super fun lor!

i really miss camp sia..

especially bumble bee!!!

PRONTO REALLY MISS HIM SIA..!!

i will tell u abt the whole camp!

Day 1!

in the morning all assemble at the parade square la..

i didn wan to embaress myself by carrying all the heavy stuffs..

i didn wan any of my outside frens to see..

but bloody hell..

ashiq was in the cyber cafe with the ncc guys la..

thank god i wasn carrying my bags..

if not he will be laughing damn hard at me

lol so yeah!

assembled..had our checks

n then our trainers arrived..

so we were separated into four grps la..

like wth!!

itreally did seperate everyone..

thank god i had ella..

then shaira had chandra..

n i guess zainab was alone..

hahaha..poor gal

so yeah played the ice breaking game with bumble bee n headed campsite after the rain stopped..

went there n the first thing we did was to do flag..

then had to hold on to it all the way

played games like 007 n 369

its like damn fun lor..

then durin the for fit..

bumble bee had to do the nobody dance..

he was like damn cute can?

hahas..

very very cute...

then we got extra bathing time thanks to bumble bee..

hahas yeah then had fun during bathing

i bath outside with few others..

then ate our dinner n had our nite walk..

i went with ella..

we were scared at first..

but we were ok aready..

then yeah at our supper..n our debrief..

bumble bee tok to us individually la...

then lights off liao!!

i will continue day 2 n 3 tomorow ok..

im damn tired!

byezz!!

Day 2!

day two was mostly the wt activities la..

in the moning play shooting game..

i forgot wat the game name is coled..

then yeah after tat went for kayaking..

hjad to carry the kayaks ..

shoulders all damn aching ok..

then yeah i kayak with anuja..

then had lunch n had the amazing race in the campsite

very fun la..

our last station was the milo pond..

damn damn freaking fun..

got those milos into my nose ok..

had our bathing ..

again outside the cibicle..

dinner then came to know tat iffah ma'am lost her shoes

so were finding for it..

lights off were quite late la..

hahas..

yeah!

Day 3!

woke up had breakfast

then went for area cleaning la..

we cleaned the toilets..

but actually it was very clean..

so we did not have much to clen up

then yeah pack up n chao back to scool..

my dad was there to fetch me..

yeah!

tats all peepz..

im like soo missing all my instructors..

haiz..

byez!

2009-11-10T17:11:00.000-08:00

HAPPY B'DAY PRIYA AKKA!!

Today is my sister's b'day..

hahaha poor thing la she..

she got scool today...

n i enjoyed with my parents alot..
lol i very bad siaa..

i n my parens in the morning went tekka..

then we ate lunch at restaurent..

n then went shopping at mustafa..

i bought mysel a pump shoe...

n a nice looking sandal..

it was seriously very nice..

PURPLE IN COLOR!!

hehe yeah then after tat all then went to watch movie..

tamil movie la..

newly released..

'Khanden Khadalai!'

i seriously dunno how to spell la..

hahahas..

anyway the movie was damn nice..

damn comedy sia..

i was like laughing through out the whole movie like an idiot..

i dunno y also..

even after the moviie finish also i still laughing sia..

now also i thinking abt all the jokes..

hahahahaha.. =D

yeah then after tat bought b'day cake then headed home..

waited for my sis la..

then after she came hom we cut cake n ate dinner..

n now im blogging..

got some fotos la..

will be uploading..

Byezz!!

2009-11-08T00:46:00.000-08:00

[The kuku me n my galfren]

Today went to jp..

bought a nice b'day dress for my sis la..

at this fashion..

then went to john little to but some stuffs..

then rushed back home..

bcoz my relative suddenly come to my houz..

then we no choice wat..

have to stop everything then mz go back home..

yeah then actually they came to visit my mum la..

yeah so after tat they went back home..

took my dinner n now blogging...

tomorow have redcross..

need to do the poster..

yeah shall blog tomorow..

Byezz!

2009-11-07T00:29:00.000-08:00

[I lOve This Pic!]

I'm extremely sorry for not updating my blog...

seriously got no time...

got redcross traiaing everyday..

then come back home also very late..

damn tiring also..

achings all over..

yeah then today went for the competition la..

we won west district 2nd..

we were sad at first then realized tat sth is better than nth..

so yeah reached home n suppose to go to jp la..

to buy dress for my sis..

coz her b'daycoming soon..

but i very tired..

then i tol my parens tat i don wanna go..

then in the end the whole thing also cancelled..

then asked my dad to buy for me food la..

he took like quite long...

so yeah ate n now blogging..

very tired man..

i need a massage..

i will ask my dad to massage..

i think tomorow will go jp la..

coz now late aready..

so yeah peeepz!

Byez!!

2009-11-01T00:36:00.000-07:00

PEOPLE!!

I BOUGHT MY NEW HP!!

SONY ERICSSON T715!!

SOO NICE SIA..

I SOO HAPPY.

THANK U MUMMY N DADDY!!

2009-10-31T00:31:00.000-07:00

Had redcross today..

training was very fun..

we played this game la..

all muz close eyes n do drills..

everyone separate sia..

one at one corner..

lol damn fun sia..

then yeah rushed back home n came back again for dance practice..

very tired la..

actually was suppose to go to sujan's houz today..

but i couldn la..

coz i also had visitors coming to my houz..

n had to take care of my mum..

she jz only came back from operation..

yeah so today baby came to my house la..

sathia uncle kuru shanthi aunty n yeah my precious also..

LAKSHITHA BABY!!

damn cute sia she..

she grow bigger areday..

she's gonna be a year old on 10 december..

she like me sia..

december baby..

but mine still have to wait long way!

yeah so was playing with baby the whole while..

took pics also.

but i will not upload now la..

maybe next week..

coz i like very lazy now..

hehe..ok peepz!

Byezz!

2009-10-30T04:00:00.000-07:00

Today was parents teacher meeting session..

quite fun la toking to teachers..

my mum n dad first fetched me from IMM..

i had my first aid course there..

then went straight to scool..

my dad parked his car at the carpark..then went to classroom..

took my report book n the test papers..

looked at my report book n a smile appeared on my face..

i was like happy u know...

then my parents also like very happy sia..

then they said tat they will buy for my a new hp soon..

i damn happy sia..

first toked to mr.suhaimi..

then wen to tok to mr.jaya..

mice guy sia he..

i really like him alot..

i guess wat..

he will be teaching me tamil nxt year..

cool rite?

yup then drived back home la..

took dinner n now blogging..

toking to zaianb on the fina also..

ok pple..

i got redcross tomorow..

BYezz!!

2009-10-29T03:45:00.000-07:00

Sorry peepz for not blogging for long..

i was very lazy n really had no mood..

yesterday had rescross..

training was fun..

did footdrill la n tok stories..

today im blogging to tell sth to one of my classmate..

hope she reads this post..

especially that message tat i wanna tell her!

Dear Classmate,

I'm sorry if i have done anything rong to u..

i dunno wether r u angry with me or wat..

but its okay..

jz wanted to tell u tat im not angry with u..

im juz upset abt wat u have done..

extremely upset..

i dunno wether u know y..

but if u wanna know then u can ask me..

but now im very hurt abt wat u said to another fren of mine abt me..

"Staying away from me is better than fighting everyday"

Tats wat u said..

it really did hurt me very badly..

u even made me cry the whole day..

u made me think abt u the whole day..

we don fight everyday..

we jz quarrel..

in the end we will still get back together n will be normal..

i dunno wether u know this..

fighting everyday does not separate us..

it got us even more closer.

i've always hoped tat u will be with me till the end..

coz u r the one left in the six..

i hope u will understand..

if u think tat im in the rong..

then its okay..

i don mind..

but i really do treasure the frenship tat i have with u alot..

u don know how much i love u as a close n a best fren.

this is all tat i wanna tell u..

u can tag me in my blog..

or send me a frenster comment..

if u wan to tok to me u r welcomed to..

jz give me a col..

i wish u a happy holiday..

n i hope u r happy with ur results..

i m also looking forward to be in the same class as u..

sorry for everything tat i've done..

i will pass ur $4.50 to someone during the class outing to give it to u..

i hope u will come for the outing..

i wanna have fun with u!!

take good care of urself..

Byezz!

From: Dappa

2009-10-21T05:59:00.000-07:00

[Me N Vicky..Wen I was sick!]
[Me Vicky n sis!]

[Haiyo!! My Iduppu can c!!!]

[Me n my sis!]

[My n vicky!]

[The three of us again!]

[Me n vicky again!]

[kids n my mum!]

Here r the deepavali pics..

actuall got 100s of it la..

but i lazy to upload!

2009-10-18T05:48:00.000-07:00

My cousins all came to my houz today la..

ha much fun..

but not really la..

coz i was sick to day man!

really cannot take it aready..

i have been vommiting since 4.30am in the morning until jz now..

now i gonna sleep la..

took alot of oics today..

but i don wan to upload now la..

very tired..

ya then pple came to my houz also i sleeping sia..

like very bad rite..

then my cousin come n wake me up with their mum..

they were like concern la..

like ofcoz..hehehe!

yeah! ya la...

nth much to tok abt aready..

im like damn lazy la..

cannot take it..

body all aching..

Byez!

2009-10-17T02:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY DEEPAVALI PEOPLE!!

I'm like damn happy today u know..

really enjoyed myself..

u know wat??

i only went to 5 houses to day but i got $99 u know..

really alot sia..

i still got a long way to go la..

so yeah!

confirm will get alot la..

so ya la..

wake up early in the morning then bath..

pray then relax for awhile la..

then chao to my granma's houz la..

took alot of pics there with my cousinz..

then went to another 4 houses la..

my aunt then another grandma la..

then yeah! quite tiring la..

coz i wearing the pavaadai thavani..

sth like sari la..

but not sari..

i have the pic..

soo i will show later..

tomorow i got relatives coming to my houz la..

im like damn excited!!

haha..

ok then shall blog tomorow if got time!

Byezz!!

2009-10-14T00:12:00.000-07:00

[Watch The Video]

[Mrs.Maha..King..My sis]

[My Sis & Fren!]
[Me & The 2 Babys]
[Group Foto]

[next one]

[My sis n her fwens]

VODKA PWINCESS IS BACK!

i jz only came back from BLGPS..

they had the deepavali concert la..

then my younger sister participate...

so went there to put make-up for her n some of the other primary one gals..

then yeah! the concert not bad la..

but it was quite short...

n u know wat...

i made fwen with a baby..

it was extremely cute..

i soo fell in love with him..

hahaha...

but not my bf la..

too young aready la...

yeah soo b4 we got out of the scool bloody hell it started raining..

n we got wet..

took taxi la..

very heavy rain..

ok i had enough of the rain..

now im blogging..

like obviously..

later need to clean my room..

DEEPAVALI IS COMING!!

very excited..

gonna get money..

yeah ok peepz!

Byezz!

2009-10-13T04:54:00.001-07:00

[Pirinthah]

[Rachel]

[Us!]

[Again]

[Teddy love!]

[My love]

[U break her heart, i break ur face!]

[Cool!]

[Hehe][I love her to the max]

VODKA PWINCESS IS BACK PPLE!!

hahaha..i really had fun today..

got ourselves high man..

i rachel pirinthah n jasveen..

vodka rockzz to the core..

omg!! I was like having headache sia..

all the same..

pirintahh was the worsest..

followed by me..

then jasveen n rachel..

cool sia..

then went to macdonalds...

then we wash up..

wash our mouth all la..

then we straight chao to rachel's houz la..

atfirst got some prob with the maid..

then ok aready

yup we were like taking alot of pics..

lying down like drunken womens..

hahahahaha..

we were like HIGH MAN!!
hahaha...

much fun today..

tomorow might be going to shive's houz..

c wether i can make it..

hahaha..

ok peepz..

i got pics to upload..

can take a look at it..

BYezz!!

2009-10-10T05:16:00.000-07:00

[After climbing the pyramid]
[Vodka Babes]

[The Bottle Tat We Drank..Total Full man!]

[Me & Pirinthah]

Yo Peepz!

sorry for not blogging for long la..
i no time..

i got another one more exam to go..
which is geography..

i've got confidence for it..

PPLE! U KNOW WAT? I'VE LEARNT TO ENJOY LIFE =)

yup today was really very fun la..

after exam straight chao to playground n had lots of fun there man..

i got my chocolate from PATRICK!

Thanks bro..love ya

n yeah sat n chit chat n also played..

i was as usual scribbling on the table..

& disturbing ashiq..

really had nth else better to do..

n yeah after all the playground stuffs..

i, pirinthah, rachel and jasveen went to lake park n played..

i tell u we had soo much of fun la..

we climbed pyramid n all..

then play the wheel swing like small gals..

then we sang song..

& YES! WE GOT OURSELVES HIGH!

Vodka is the best man..

behaved like drunken womens till we reach jasveen's houz..

then after tat we all good gals aready..

but in the room we started to make more noise..

like WTH rite..

ya i know..lol

then i poured water on jasveen's table bcoz this pirinthah was like making me laugh like hell..

this gal ah..

haiyo i tell u joker number 2 la..

zainab is number 1...lol

yup then i n pirinthah headed home la..

we still continued laughing la..

like nobody's business..

hahas..

ok i've got pics pple..

enjoy cing it..

Byezz!!

2009-10-06T23:13:00.000-07:00

BLOODY HELL!!

I FEEL LIKE CRYING :(

MATHS EXAM SUCKED TO THE CORE!!

I DON WAN TO DO MY HISTORY!!

IM SCARED =(

GOD HELP ME..

R.I.P

2009-10-05T05:01:00.000-07:00

I'M YAWNING PPLE!!

omg..im like super tired..

but i have to study for my maths exam tomorow..

like wat the hell rite..

yeah i know u know my pain..

lol ok im like getting crazy now..

anyways today was fun la..

after scool enjoyed with AC!!

yeah at first actually thay had remedial la..

for maths..

then i n pirinthah wen to the playground first..

so yeah we were toking..

then after tat all of them came la..

i haran zainab pirinthah nina nisa sheeka feza n i guess tats all..

yup we went to the library to study..

then at the library we were studying la..

this pirinthah got 3/5 for the questions tat i gave her..

angry with her la..

then this zainab was like joking..

then i was sitting down there n laughing like nobody's business..

ok ya then went to jp la..

wanted to buy bubble tea..

n guess wat..

we saw ashiq with his frens there..

i thought he good boy go home..

but u c la..

haiy0 haiy0..

then after buying bubble tea was standing down there..

this haran challenged me with the hand-pen trick la...

i seriously cannot do la..

then i had to treat him old chanky..

he bought the curry puff..

looked very nice so i took a bite..

then was sharing bubble tea with yad la..

then we tok tok laugh laugh then wen home aready..

now im blogging..

i feel like sleeping but i haven revise for my maths..

so i have to study now..

gotta go

Byezz!!

2009-09-17T06:29:00.000-07:00

[tat's her]

I'm extremely sorry for not blogging for long..

i nowadays not time to blog aready..

examz r nearing..

hope i will do well..

wish me all luckz..

streaming somemore..

like WTH!!

I THINK I'M GONNA DIE..

hahas okie..

i don wan to get myself stressed..

u know wat happened today..

OMG!!

during english lesson ah..

haiyo..

i really laughed alot..

with lekha,aishwarya, neeran,priya and nagesh.

i laygh until i cry sia..

irally cannot take it..

until now if i think abt it i will burst out laughing..

LEKHA FELL OFF FROM HER CHAIR TODAY!!!

hahahahahahahahahaha..

i tol her that im gonna blog abt it..

haha..

actually u know wat happen anot..

atfirst some one took lekha's pencilcase la..

then she was searching for it..

this priya go n hide it in the cupboard..

but lekha did not know..

but then lekha suspected neeran...

then she was standing at her place scolding everyone la..

then aishwarya was standing behind lekha..

wen lekha wan to sit down..

this aishu go n pull the chair away sia..

nobody thought tat she will fall..

but she did..

everyone laughed like hell sia..

the wiorst part was when she fell noone helped her sia..

all of us were like laughing continuously like hell..

omg...!! hahahahahaha...

the impact btween the floor n her butt was SUPERB!!

HAHA..

i cannot stop laughing la..

this lekha ah..

she joker u know..

she start toking areday pple will laugh like helll..

n i also tol her tat oe day im gonna post sth abt her in my blog..

a post which tells everything abt her..

n im gonna make her mannam fly up to the sky..

hahaha..

ok la..

i need to take a break..

then mz go n study..

byez!!

2009-09-10T06:43:00.000-07:00

[SOO SWEET!!]

HAPPY B'DAY MUMMY!!!

today my mummy's b'day..

n she is vry old..

lol..

ya wat..u know how old is she anot??

she is like 43 years old..

but she look young la..

not like my dad..

gonna be bald..

hahaha..

yup & today was fun at home..

celebrated my mum's b'day..

ordered cake, pizza, KFC & macdonald..

BLOODY HELL!! I ATE ALOT!!

got myself full & now blogging..

& u know wat..

i totally forgot tat i got tution today..

maths tution at JE!!

i was like..

"Mummy!! I nvr go for tution.."

hahahahah....

she found me cute..

n she was like nvm la..

tell teacher tat not feeling well..

like wat the hell!!

she wans me to lie..

but nvm..

nth new to me =D

hehe..

very naughty gal..

so yeah!

kinda bored now..

thinkig abt wat to do..

any ideas please contribute...

will appreciate..

lol..

Byezz!!

2009-09-09T05:41:00.000-07:00

[Happy B'day Dearest!]

HAPPY B'DAY PIRINTHAH DARLING..

sorry for not updating la..

i'm like very bz for the past few days..

i dunno y..

i got alot of things to be done for this week..

got redcross also sia..

very tiring sia..

but nvm i'll endure..

ok ya..

today i had sana course la..

then i totally had no time to wish pirinthah..

haiz..

then ya la..

went for sana course..

8 of us la..

i was kind of lonely..

without someone :-[

wanted to tok to her abt some stuffs but haiz i couldn..

then ya la..

had much fun in the course..

then made alot of new frens..

most of them i areday know them..

haha..

ya la..

then came home n now blogging..

i kind of upset la..

i dunno y..

but im jz upset..

life's sickening man..

feel soo hopeless..

ok then

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-29T05:48:00.000-07:00

I PASSED MY FOOTDRILL GOLD ACCRED!!

I'M SOO HAPPY!! =D

2009-08-28T06:23:00.000-07:00

[The Time Tat I had a Smile On My Face Is Now Gone]

Tears falling down my cheak,

whats happining to me?

I used to be so strong,

but lately I feel so weak.

all the stress brings me down,

It gives me no choice,

I cant seem to speak my mind,

I just can't find my voice.

more cuts end up on my wrist,

something else I got to hide,

besides the smile I used to have,

but now it's hid behind,

the other part of me,

the person I pretend to be,

so you dont see my tears,

I fight all my fears,

I can't show emotion,so I store it all inside,

but It builds up,I breakdown,

I have to cut myself to let it all out.

The pills numb my pain,

puts the stress off to the side,

and when I bleed it all out,

I feel better inside.

2009-08-27T05:37:00.000-07:00

[I know i look soo kuku..pls don laugh!!]

HAPPY B'DAY TO SANDIYASHINI!!

HAHA..today my younger sis b'day...

wish her a wonderful happy b'day..

today nth much in scool la..

after scool i n my father went to collect my hp la..

but mr.gopal say tat only can collect on 3 september..

like wat the hell loh!!

i wan my fone back sia..

i miss it like soo much u know..

haiz..

mz wait until next week...

i m now studying for my saturday gold accred..

so i will continue blogging tomorow..

okie..

[Byezz!]

2009-08-26T05:32:00.000-07:00

Hey peepz...

i know tat nowadays my post all very boring..

coz all poems rite..

i dunno y..

all of the sidden i feel like posting poems..

expressing all my mixed emotion in my poems..

haiz..

yeah i feel damn upset abt some pple..

some things..

i dunno wether is something rong with me or the pple around me..

i also dunno wether m i in rong..

i seriously dunno wu to believe..

i cannot even hear my own heart toking..

haiz..

the kind of life tat im gonna live from now on..

yeah..ok..

i apologize another one more time for not bloging abt wats happening..

i jz love the poems..i dunno y..

almost everyday i've been reading poems..

yeah today nth much la..

came back hom after training..

today's training was extremely fun..

then came back home..n now blogging..

at the same time toking to one bangla guy on the fone [Ashiq]

hahaha..

yeah..

gonna sleep soon..

maybe i will be posting more poems la..

[Byezz!]

2009-08-25T05:17:00.000-07:00

I came to you the hour I was in pain

Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.

I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,

I knew then you'd be my friend,

I knew it from the start.

Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,

You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.

When home wasn't home to me no more,

You opened up your heart, and opened up the door.

We cried into night until the early morn.

We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns.

As time flew, the air grew thick,

I saw our friendship fading, and my heart grew sick.

The day had arrived,

When it was time to say goodbye.

Now I sit alone,

reminiscing the past I'd blown.

2009-08-24T05:28:00.000-07:00

[She Knows It All]

I used to think,

Our friendship was the best.

Now we can really,

Put it to the test.

You were always there for me,

This I know,

Always right there,

Being alone is what I wanted though.

Every time something bad happened,

You always said it was my fault.

When that started,

My love for you came to a halt.

Why would you blame me,

For something I didn't do?

Can't you just for once believe,

That what I say could be true?

I know it's hard,

To face reality,

Because it's a lot easier,

To make this illusion what you see.

I thought I was your best friend,

Come to find out I wasn't even close.

The sting of the truth,

Is what hurt me the most.

I thought you were my best friend,

Now I know that's not true.

Goodbye, Babe,

Our friendship is through.

2009-08-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

[I Love Tat Fren Of Mine Realy Alot]

Today I found a friend,

Who knew everything I felt.

He knew my every weakness,

And the problems I've been dealt.

He understood my wonders,

And listened to my dreams.

He listened to how I felt about life and love,

And knew what it all means.

Not once did he interrupt me,

Or tell me I was wrong.

He understood what I was going through,

And promised he'd stay long

I reached out to this friend

To show him that i care

To pull him close and let him know

How much I need him there

I went to hold his hand

To pull him a bit nearer

And realized that this perfect friend I found

Was nothing but my mirror.

2009-08-22T05:02:00.000-07:00

[She was tring to dig his butt]

Im extremely tired..

n i don really fel like blogging now..

but nvm i will jz blog..

today i tell u..

i woke up at 5.30 la..

then i got down from my houz at 6.30..

i had redross la..

modular workshop for footdrill gold..

i happy happy go la..

i pack all my stuffs..

my bag was like kinda heavy also..

bloody hell i couldn even carry it..

ok ya..

then wen to kambangan mrt station..

then go n change in the toilet la..

all filled with redcross cadets sia..

hahahaha..

sooo cool n fun..

ya la then change finish we wait for the bus la..

the first bus was like WTF!!

sooo pack..

not even one person can go in sia..

ya then took the second bus..

then we reach redcross campsite la..

coz my scool everyone go together la..

then we were like the latest pple..

got another scool also la..

ya then until 5.30pm we train n train la..

very tiring..

but still the VIs all joke with us la..

ya then after the traiining waited for the OA pple to come out..

then went back to the interchange la..

i change then i had to go to bugis la..

meet my father n family..

for shopping..

then i brought my outside clothes..

but i nvr bring shoe sia..

then i was like a kuku u know..

wear nice clothes but got boots..

lol..

ya then i got down at bugis la..

bloody hell then i walk to tekka u know..

i thought my dad will fetch me..

i was like wth..

my body all aching u know..

then my leg also got blister!!

then ya i was limping la..

then after shopping..

come back hom..

bathe n now blogging..

walao...

my body aching...

next saturday got exam sia..

i damn scared..

ok then..

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-21T03:32:00.000-07:00

I've tried so hard to explain

by my actions that he's like a brother.

But his feelings are so plain

as he acts as if my lover.

I've tried to help him understand,

but he refuses to believe

that I'm not in love and can't take his hand.

So one day, I'll leave.

I'll miss my friend immensely

and wish he could've understood.

I hope he'll forget quickly

sooner and faster than I would.

Goodbye my best friend,

I'll love till the end.

2009-08-20T02:54:00.000-07:00

[It's Really Me!!]

You couldn't understand,

even if you tried,

the reason that she cries at night,

the reason she tries to hide.

Don't try to come close,

she'll just push you away,

there's something that you don't know,

words she couldn't say.

She tries with all her might,

to be herself around her friends,

but something doesn't feel right,

a broken heart that could not mend.

She pretends that she's strong,

a tough outer shell,

but there's always something wrong,

she's trapped in her Hell.

She wants to speak,

to tell you all the truth,

but she is way too weak,

broken without any glue.

Painfully shy;

the bird that couldn't fly.

Dying on the inside;

a body without a mind.

Maybe if you took the time,

find the person she tries to be.

Maybe if you looked inside,

you'd realize she is me.

2009-08-19T02:46:00.000-07:00

Day After Day I See My Life

Right Before My Eyes,

Night After Night

Im Alone Always Wondering Why.

Im Feeling My Heart Ache

As My Dreams Fade Away,

I Feel The Lost Of Love

Each And Everyday.

You Think That We Are Alright

Cause You Think My Pain Is Gone,

But You Seen The Tears I Have Cried

And Yet Im Still Alone.

You Are This Man

That I Gave My Heart To,

You Are This Man

But Do You Feel The Same As I Do?

Where Are You Now

When I Need You The Most?

Where Are You Now

Are You Somewhere Close?

Are You Able To Love Me Back?

Or Will You Trun The Other Way?

Will You Give Me Your Heart

And Make It Easier To Stay?

Can You Treat Me Right

And Calm My Fears?

Take All My Pain Away

By Wiping My Tears.

Hold Me In Your Arms

Pull Me In So Close,

Let Me Know Im Loved

Thats What I Need The Most.

So Tell Me Now

And Tell Me True,

Are You This Man

I Want From You?

2009-08-16T00:25:00.000-07:00

[Haiz!!]

U Know Wat..

That Fucker Jz don Know How Much Love I Have For Him..

He Really Irritated me..

I Felt Soo Brokened..

God..He Jz Don Learn His Lesson..

Y On Earth Did I Even Met Him..

I Used To Love The Day I Met Him..

But Now I'm Really Hating It..

Jz Incase If He Reads This Post..

To Him: " If This Is Going To Happen Again..I'm Jz Gonna Keep Quiet With A Broken Heart...U Jz Don Know Wat I've Sacrificed For U Dear..U Seriously Don Understand..Wat's Rong With u??..U Know Wat I was Very Happy Without U..But Once U Came Back For Me...I Hardly Smile Everyday...If U Wanna Know Wat Really Happened Yesterday..Go N Ask Karthick..& Pls Don Regret In The End!! I Love You "

2009-08-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

[Stealing In Progress]

PEOPLE!!!.

guess wat..

i slep for 13 hours sia..

isn tat cool..

lol..

not again..

u know wat..

my craziness is back..

i was crazy the whole day...

from morning till nite..

like duh..

whole day is from morning till nite rite..

lol..

okie..

sth is really rong with me!!

Someone pls col the IMH!!

there is a mad person in my houz..

which is me..

hahhahahaha..

okie..

was jz joking..

nice rite..

i also dunno wat is soo nice..

ok..lolololololololololol~~~

let's go on..

yeah then after i wake up..

bathe then i sat down to do homework la..

after hw..

got ready for tution..

went for tution then had to do revision la..

was also quite fun at class..

hahass...

okie ya then came back home..

then was watching this movie coled maayandi..

seriously tat movie was super duper nice man..

was touching n quite sad la..

but it was really very nice..

i feel like watching it again..

dumb ass..

u think wat i've got nth else better to do?!?!?!?!

yeah n u know wats for my dinner??

CHILLI CRAB!!!

omg..

if u r wandering..

its my all time favourite man..

it was soo rocking to the core..

i was the only one who ate alot sia..

eat until nhow my tummy big big aready..

n now im blogging..

ok la..

i wan to go watch another movie..

pattaalam..

watching it 1/2 way..

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-14T02:52:00.000-07:00

Today was extremely fun la..

in the morning as usual..

i send him to jurong east..

then wen scool la..

actually b4 tat i went back to boon lay again for some reasons..

then back to lakeside..

met up with lekha..

then yeah..

scool was awesome today..

very fun..

then after scool i wen back home la..

to bathe then i came back for redcross..

today;s redcross was very fun..

we were doing footdrill la..

then we were joking around then we played the footdrill the game la..

the one the FDC Cadets plyed..

very fun..

we did alot of jumping jacks la..

hahaha..

yeah then after redcross wen to pg la..

then relax for awhile..

then i zainab n chandra were walking to interchange la..

then saw haran n frens..

yeah the i n zainab took 243 n went back home..

now i fell damn tired..

im going to sleep!!

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-13T02:47:00.000-07:00

[Me]

Haiz..

M I suppose to follow him to jurong east again..

im confused..

helpless..

stuck..

But i still love him truck loadz..

more than tat!!

2009-08-12T20:30:00.000-07:00

[Me & Sis!]

I'm extremely sorry for not blogging yeaterday..

i was very lazy..

n now i don even remember wat happened yesterday..

nvm..

lets go on to wat happened today..

actually nth much la..

my father did not send me to scool today..

then haresh asked me to follow him to jurong east to send him off to scool la..

atleast can spend more time with him..

yeah then early in the morning..

i took 243 with him la.

then we went until jurong east...

i send him off then came back to lakeside..

i met up with lekha..

then was waiting for the train to boon lay..

then was toking to her abt some exciting things..then i saw haran & ashiq..

then once we reached boon lay..

met up with kuga then we walk to scool la..

like wat i lekha eugene n jason planned..

it was my turn to bring sweet to class today la..

then yeah..

scool was fun la...

i dunno wether was it today or yesterday tat lekha chased eugene in class..

bcoz eugene go take lekha's wallet..

i tell u i n nagesh laughed like hell u know..

seriously cannot take it..

they ran almost 3 rounds around the class..

i guess it was a gd excersise for lekha..

coz she got a FAT ASS!!

hahahahaha..

don tell her tat i said this..

if not she will kill me..

hahaha..

yeah!! then after scool normal la..

come home..

n now blogging...

im like bored now..

i wanna bully someone..

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

Yo Peepz!!

hahaha..

u know wat..

my weekend was extremely fun u know..

hahaha i wen to malayysia la..

JB obviously..

coz only got two days wat..

then cannot go far also..

hahaha..

yeah..

then ya i wen with my family...

omg..obviously with my family rite..

goodness..

banana has gone mad..

ok let m continue..

my family jeeitha family n Kuru's family..

haiz..my lakshitha baby nvr come..

yeah then the first day which was saturday..

in the morning caught in a jam la..

then clear everything areday then go eat..

we met the rest in the restaurant la..

then after we eat..

drive down go buy cloths..

then give cloths to a shop for sewing..

yeah!! then we had our lunch..

Then came the best part..

we drove to the hotel la..

i tell..wen i enter the room i felt like screaming sia..

the room was super nice..

actually not better than the one in portdickson..

i wen last time..

yeah..then ya la..

shopping shopping..

then we buy breads all la..

then bought beer all..

then went back to hotel..

the kids all..

including me n jeevitha..

wen for swimming la..

had alot of fun there also..

after wimming bathe then went to bowling..

then go n eat..

then like everyone also tired aready..

after tat obviously we went to sleep..

next day in the morning go for breakfast..

then buy cloths again la..

we went back to hotel to check out..

then we went to watch movie..

u know wat movie i watched??

G.I Joe!!!

omg..

i love tat movie to the max core man..

it was freaking nice man..

better than harry potter la..

hahaha..

yeah..

then after the show eat..

we ate seafood la..

for dinner..

i tel u my tummy was like so bloated u know..

hahaha..

yeah then after tat came back home la..

got alot of things which i haven tell sia..

i damn lazy u know..

tired also..

haiz..

tomorow got scool..

ok then..

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-07T02:19:00.000-07:00

[Bored!!]

Today was extremely fun..

ok my madness has gone..

so don worry..

i will make this post short n sweet..

yeah..

i wen to scool in the morning..

then i saw two of my fres la..

then wen sir n ma'ams all come aready then go to redcross room put bag n then go n change..

ya then we got ready la..

took temperature..

then wait for parade to start...

then i ha d mentose la..

grape one..pirintha dearest bought for me..

i love her lots..

yeah then the parade started la..

got alot of pple standing around..

was quite nervous but overcome it aready..

yeah then after tat i had performance la..

so i rushed up to redcross room..

take my bag then i go change la..

then yeah!!

performance time..

hahaha..

tat was wen the fun began..

really damn fun u know..

2N3's performance was really nice..

i loved it..

then my class performance also la..

was quite fun n nice..

yeah then we had our sing-a-long session..

all the 2e2 n 2n3 performers all stand up n sing la..

really very paisei sia..

but nvm..

i still did enjoy..

yeah then got price giving la..

2n3 got 4th..

shockig u know..

i thought tat they will be in the top three but haizz..

nvm la..

then my class was second la.

ok la..

not bad..

i make sure mr.suhaimi will treat us..

yeah!!!

yup then after celebration my parents came n fetched me la..

n now i m blogging..

later got tuiton..

then ya tomorow i going malaysia la..

so i won blog tomorow n on sunday..

coz i will only come back on sunday nite..

yeah..so

[Byez!!]

2009-08-06T02:00:00.000-07:00

[Is Tat me..Going Crazy!!]

At last..

its thursday..

lol for fun only!!

I'm Not Bored!!

What's rong with me la..

ok i know..

im going CRAZY!!!

tomorow got NDP!!

& performance also..

i got alot of things to bring..

WTFFFFFFFF!!!

& i also dunno wats rong with me..

i think i'm crazy..

Really ah..

i seriously dunno..

sick until go crazy..

oh ya..

toking abt sick..

u know wat happen today??

Actually nth much la..

alot of cryings..

& sadness..

Worryings!!

haiz...wat a day..

okok i know its boring..

coz i'm crazy..

let me get back to the story..

so ya..

today morning wen i went to scool..

as usual..

i waited for zainab to come..

she took bloddy damn long time to come..

then ya la..

tok tok tok..

scool was boring..

but lesson time was like damn fun..

coz got lekha!!

if u r wandering wu is lekha..

let me tell u..

she is my beaku fren..

hahaha..

hope she doesn read this post!! ^.^

ya i forgot to tell..

i was sick..

kind of having fever..

i felt soo damn weak..

n in tamil lesson got 1 idiot really piss me off..

ya after scool wen to 2N3..

then i was sitting down n polishing my boots..

then suddenly i felt like fainting sia..

i was first holding on to the window..

then the wall..

then i go n rest on the table..

my body was like hot u know..

then zainab was feeding me toast bread..

soo nice of her!!

haha..

yeah!!

then got tehersal..

then i tell u..

the whole 2N3 performers cried bcoz of a cookie monster..

i tell u i was also angry with tat cookie monster..

stupid sia she..

ruined everything..

FUCK HER FUCK HER FUCK HER!!

Lol..ok..relax

ya then i n zainab wen for redcross lat..

bcoz of the rehersal..

then we did 15 squads..

15 push up..

n y6a chicken dance also..

hahah

fun u know..

ya then go back home..

n now here i m telling u all abt wat happen today!!

i still have to iron my uniform..

n go to sleep..

i have to be in scool by 6.15 tomorow..

yeah!!

okok i know my post very long..

so go n relax ur eyes...

[Byezz!!] [Crazy!!]

2009-08-05T02:19:00.000-07:00

[Me & Vicky]

Yeah!!.

today i had NDP rehersal..

yeah!!!

n i was like shocked u know..

i saw haran in the NDP also..

i was like..

WTH Whre did he com from..

hahas..

anyways yeah was rehersing for a long time la..

it was full-uni for god sake..

hahas..

it was like soo damn bloody hot man!!

i was suffering..

hahahas..

yeah..

then practicing la..

i was not tired sia..

but i was not really feeling well la..

very hot body..

then i came back home la..

with pirintha n sagu..

then in the interchange i saw pirintha's mum la..

then was toking to her la..

i came to know that she is my father's childhood fren...

i n pirintha were like soo shocked man..

hahas..

yeah!!

i was like laughing..

then i came back home..

i jz only cleared my uniform..

take out the badges all la..

then i put it to wash..

hahas..

yeah!!

coz friday i have to wear..

ok la..

i like damn tired now..!!

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-04T02:10:00.000-07:00

[Haha..Damn Cute]

Hey peepz!!

jz only came back from scool la...

i had rehersal..

quite fun la..

but im like mood out the whole day..

haiz..

i dunno y..

i don feel like blogging also..

anyways nth much happen tomorow..

hope evrything will be back to normal..haiz.!!

2009-08-03T01:57:00.000-07:00

[Nice Pic]

Hey peepz..

i'm like very happy today..

i dunno y..

hahaha..

in scool during maths lesson i got back my test paper la..

for chapter 7..

n u know wat..

i got FULL MARKS..

shocking u know..

got 2 pple get full marks..

me n aliyah..

hahaha...

once teacher announced my name i was like..

WHAT THE FUCK HELL!!!

hahahaha..

yeah then i also got back science test paper la..

ok la..

not bad..

i got 20/30...

i still find it bad..

i not good in my scince la..

i only gd in my maths..

yeah!!!

then after scool...

relax for awhile..

tomorow i got rehersal sia..

tuesday wednesday n thursday..

haiyo..

i was like OMFG wen i saw the consent form..

yeah..

n ya..

i forgot to tell u...

today's pirintha's mother treated us KFC!!

coool sia..

hahas..

yeah..

today i got no tutioon la..

she not feeling well..

haiz..

ok la..

i blog tomorow..

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-02T06:37:00.000-07:00

[Jz An Ordinary Scool Gal]

My damn neck pain is still there..

how sickening..

some pple early in the morning aready pissed me off..

n ya today was really not a gd day la..

i went for tution la..

again with that damn nerve pull..

then ya..

as usual tution was like damn boring..

then got one guy kept on msging me la..

very irritating u know..

he was like bullying me u know..

haiyo..

i seriously couldn take it aready..

i like soo pissed off tat i tok to my parents soo rude ly..

then after tution i wen t to little india la..

go shopping with my family..

n also with my aunt n grandma..

then we really bought alot of cloths sia..

my car boot was rally flooded with plastic bags with cloths inside..

i was like soo damn shocked sia..

then ya..

i also bought la..

then yeah..

we took our dinner n came back home..

i jz now only tried all my clothings la..

very nice u know..

i dunno y..

out of all my suits i found it very fantastic..

yeah..

now i gonna sleep la..

soo late aready..

tomorow got scool..i wander how is the day gonna be..

haiz..

ok la..

[Byezz!!]

2009-08-01T06:26:00.000-07:00

[I Jz Love This Pic Alot]

OMFG!!!

People!!

i'm like soo sick here..

GOSH..

early in the morning i wake up i got nerve pull..

i cannot even turn my head to the right side u know..

so painfull..

i was like suffering the whole day..

even with tat pain also i wen to tution all u know..

my hand was like on my neck the whole da..

really cannot take it..

i feel like dieing sia..

my family all went to eat dinner sia..

then ther going shoppping..

haiz..

i cannot follow bcoz of my neck..

haiz..damn sad..

yeah..

jz only ate la..

was like damn bloody hungry..

yeah peepz..

shall bloggy tomoro

my neck damn pain aready..

im going to eat medicine n sleep..

Prince pls wake me up tomorow..

[Byezz!!]

2009-07-31T06:00:00.000-07:00

Soryy for not blogging yesterday..

i was like damn lazy sia..

i had redcross yeaterday la..

yeah!!..

so ya..

as usual..

training..

tough la..

but it was very fun..

laughed a little la..

yeah tat was for yesterday..

then today also same la..

got normal redcross.

full uniform sia..

i felt damn freaking warm..

hahaha..

but had to endure la..

so ya..

doing foot-drill the whole day...

quite tiring la..

but nvm..

then ya..

i saw pirintha n sagu..

they were sitting at the cyber-cafe..

then i n zainab waited for them outside scool..

then ya la..

after tat go home..

damn tired..

but im still blogging..

WTH!!

hahahahahaha..

ok la..

damn exhausted..

N U KNOW WAT..

IM GONNA CUT HAIR TOMOROW LA..

HAHAHA..

NOT VERY SHORT LA..

[Byezz!!]

2009-07-29T05:51:00.000-07:00

[Me..Wen i was sec 1]

Today i like very tired sia..

i dunno y..

since the time i wake up i like cannot walk propeerly..

then cannot concentrate in class...

i think it is bcoz i cry alot yesterday..

haiz..all bcoz of him..

ya anyways..

after scool i had redcoss la..

but first i went home..

then only i goo..

it was rehersal la..

for NDP..

yeah!!

next friday performioing..

hahahaha..

cool rite..

but this year only GOH sia..

will be better if got contigent..

but nvm la..

but trainign is still fun..

SHIOK!!

haha..

ya now im tired again..

i gonna sleep aready!!

[Byezz!!]

2009-07-28T05:48:00.000-07:00

NOOO MOOD!!!!

End Of Story..

2009-07-28T05:06:00.000-07:00

[Thats My Sis]

I tell u..

today was like a really shocking day for me..

okie i will start from the start first..

lol..yeah..

in scool the usuals la..

study!!!

then after scool this haran like soo bad go n bully zainab..

haha not his fault also la..

yeah then after tat all of us went to JP la..

follow pirintha buy gift..

i owe haran a slap..

so he will get from me tomorow..

hahaha..

yeah!! then ya la..

after tat i n pirintha take 242 n went back home..

okay..

now comes the shocking part..

wen i was walking under my block..

i saw haresh n those idiotic malay guys la..

omg!!

i dunno how to tell sia..

i was like shocked u know..

then all of then came up in the lift with me..

we went up intil 15 floor then they drop me in 3rd floor..

okay got alot of stuffs happen inside the lift sia..

not like wat u guys think la..

haiyo..

TERRIBLE u know!!

ok...i don wanna tok abt it aready..

ok la..

i think i will blog tomorow..

[Byezz!!]

2009-07-27T04:53:00.000-07:00

[Hahaha]

Today was like damn fun sia..

laugh alot sia...

during scool after scool n also in NDP rehersal..

hahahahahaha..

during scool this lekha made me laugh alot sia..

she n her lame jokes..

even though it was lame..

it was still funny..

then ya..

after scool was in 2n3 la..

this..

then was toking n toking until like 3..

then we went out of scool la..

was walking under the block..

then haran go n pick up a cockroach..

OMFG!!!

i was like super scared sia..

coz last time wen i was young..

sth happen to me la..

then from tat incident onwards i hated cockroaches!!

i nvr even go near him even wen he col..

soooo disgusting..

gross!!

hahaha..

ya then i go change in the block la..

WITH ASHIQ..

hahaha..

n zainab also..

then i went back to scool la..

had training..

then i was laughing alot with a gal..

coz everyone were like cracking jokes then i n she cannot take it areday..

then ya..

go home..

soo tired la..

today rain sia..

super nice..

quite cold also..

haha..

yeah..

ok la..

damn tired..

wanna rest..

ok then..

[Byezz!!]

2009-07-25T08:40:00.000-07:00

[I Look Soo KuKu!!]

I seriously enjoyed today..

with my both babies..

one is baby lakshitha n the other baby also..

haha..

i woke up like abt 9+..

my damn sis n my maid alot of noise in the room until i wake up..

irritating sia..

then i bathe then i wen back to sleep again..

damn tired sia..

i woke up only at 1..

then i got ready for tution la..

then ya..

i saw my first baby..

that handsome baby..

hahaha...

cute sia he..

he was with his frens la..

then wen he see me..

he run like mad sia..

dame cute la he..

hahaha..

ya then after tution..

wen home..

then like abt 6 my whole family wen to serangoon..

for dinner then look around la..

with lakshitha baby..

damn cute sia she..

i love her lots!!

hahaha..

then i took pic with her la..

jz 8 months only..

haha yeah..

then came home..

then now blogging..

i damn tired sia..

i dunno y!!

hahaha..

okie..

shall blog tomorow..

[Byezz!!]

2009-07-24T20:02:00.000-07:00

[Nice]

Today was kinda fun la..

during n after scool also la..

during scool i was ike jokking n jokking with lekha..

we kept on laughing..

then after scool i was little sad la..

coz i received a msg abt someone la..

then i like quite sad aready..

then i walk back homw with zainab..

go home n got ready for redcross..

then i got down at 2.10 n reach zainab block like abt 2.20 la..

then i col her..

she say she coming aready..

but i tell u ..

she took almost 15 mins to come u know..

i was abt to leave sia..

i know la..

i was impatient..

lol..but still..

ok la..hahahahahahaha..

ya then we walk back to scool la..

then was toking to zikry farah n all..

then yeah..

Fall In!!!

hahaha...

today redcross was fun sia..

i had to go to GO bcoz of my temperature..

im my thermometre it 37.9..

but in GO..

was 36+..

lol..then renuga was also with me..

then ya..

we did footdrill the whole day..

it was like damn fun..

atleast i got that 2 hours+ to laugh with her..=(

yeah..then after redcross..

i zainab all sitting at the cybercafe la..

then haran ashiq sujan n diva also came la..

then we tok tok..

the splash water here there..

the haran go quarrel with priyanka..

haiyo..

ya la..

then came back hom..

pack my back n now blogging.

hhahaha..

ok la..

im dmn tired aready..

i shall blog soon..

[Byezz!!]

2009-07-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

[Cute]

So damn sorry for not updating my blog..

i seriously got no time aready sia...

damn bz..

hahahahahahaha..yeah..

today i had rehersal for the NDP talent time show la..

damn nice n fun sia..

haha

my class,2N3 and 2N1 was there la..

alot of classes missing sia..

dunno go where also..

ya then we took two-three shots la..

always got out from the camera..

hahas..but it was like damn fun sia..

then after tat i,zainab n pirintha walk to the interchange..

then ya took bus la..

243 as usual..

then we chit chat n take foto all la..

hahaha..

i kind of enjoyed today..

n also was kind of sickening at home..

omg..

i will nvr ever drink milk in my entire life la..

jz bcoz i pour a little bit of milk on the floor my maid n parens made alot of noise..

haiz..

irritating u know..nag nag n nag only la..

haiyo..

so damn irritated..

ok la..

i blog tomorow..

[Byezz!!]